Susan Moore Jordan
“It’s more than music: it’s light. It’s love. It’s life.”
Laura and Niall Logan, children of a brilliant musician, have gifts of their own. Laura, first-born, child prodigy violinist suffers from emotional problems that haunt her well into adulthood. Niall, talented singer-song writer, is demonized by bouts of bipolar disorder. Supported by the people they love and the power of music, they seek to overcome these daunting challenges as they strive to claim their own place in the spotlight.
Deep into practicing the Brahms concerto, feeling herself one with the music, Laura was annoyed when the buzzer in her apartment sounded and she almost ignored it. Her concentration broken, she went to the intercom and asked rather crisply: “Who is it?”
“Niall! Come on up!” She was thrilled to hear his voice. She hadn’t seen him since Bonnie had gone to Hunter Mountain and brought him back to the city. Bonnie had talked with her and with Meredith and Jamie, explaining Niall wasn’t ready to see them yet. Not at Thanksgiving. Not even at Christmas.
Another month had passed and still nothing. She knew her parents were very worried, but they were all relieved he was with Bonnie. She’d keep him safe. That was the operative word these days: they all wanted Niall safe. Bonnie assured them he hadn’t been drinking, but he was struggling with depression. And now, finally, he was at her door.
They hugged long and hard when he came in, and she saw tears in his eyes.
“What can I get you? Coffee? Tea?”
“I’m good. God, you look fantastic. I’m so glad to see you.”
“I’ve been here,” she said, sitting on the sofa and patting the seat next to her. She looked carefully at him. He looked thin and she saw the strain in his face. He had let his hair grow and it was down to his shoulders; she smiled and touched it. “I like it. Long hair suits you, Roger.”
She was rewarded with a slight smile. “Thanks, Ruth. It’s just easier not to bother getting it cut. It seems I’m all about what’s easier these days.” He looked over at the violin lying on a chair. “You were practicing. I’m sorry I interrupted you.”
“I’d rather see you any day than practice. I do that all the time.”
He smiled again. “Yes, I know … I guess some things never change.” He sighed and shifted uncomfortably. “Laura, I need your help.”
“Anything. You know that.”
“When I ran away last summer … I’ve been doing a lot of thinking … well … maybe Mom was right,” he said. “I’ve kind of been in this black hole and I can’t seem to dig myself out of it. God knows I’ve tried.”
“Bonnie has talked to us, Niall. You must know that.” She put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it gently.
He settled back and relaxed. “Yes, I wanted her to. I hated to admit it, but there’s something wrong with me. I’ve barely left Bonnie’s apartment since I got back. I know Monty’s won’t take me back, and … I don’t want to work. I go to a meeting every couple of weeks. I play guitar a little sometimes. I don’t know why Bonnie doesn’t throw me out.”
“Tell me what I can do.” She took his hand in hers. He looked at their hands and smiled at her again.
“My sweet big sister. You used to do that all the time.”
“Hold your hand? It’s what big sisters do.”
His face twisted as he fought back tears. “I think I have to see somebody. A shrink. My head is messed up.”
“Oh, Niall, I’ll take care of it. I’m grateful you came to me.” She thought for a moment. “Let me call Ardith. Since she’s been my therapist she may not think she should see you, but she can recommend somebody.”
She gently wiped the tears that spilled over and ran down his face. “It’s okay, Niall. I’m more than happy to do this, and I’m so glad you want help.”
“I can’t keep living like this, I know that. I’ll pay you back somehow. I promise.”
“Don’t even think about it. Just get better,” she held him and rocked him as if he were a child. He was her sweet baby brother and she would always love him and take care of him.
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About the author
When Susan Moore Jordan was a high school student in the mid nineteen-fifties in Oak Ridge, Tennessee, a close friend went through a shattering event just as she was preparing to audition for the high school’s annual musical. Decades later Jordan used that experience of tragedy to triumph to write her first novel, How I Grew Up, in 2013. Two additional novels followed: Eli’s Heart in 2014 and You Are My Song in 2015, completing “The Carousel Trilogy.” Her fourth novel, Jamie’s Children, was just released (July, 2016). All of her novels are drawn from her life experiences as a voice teacher and stage director and are inspired by real people she has encountered.
After attending the College-Conservatory of Music, University of Cincinnati, Jordan moved from Cincinnati to the Pocono Mountains in Pennsylvania in 1971 with her late husband, a tenor, and their three young children, and established a private voice studio in 1979. She continues to teach and students have gone on to prestigious programs and careers in musical theater, opera, and education.
Jordan began directing musical theater productions for high schools and community organizations in 1984 and directed over eighty productions. She retired from directing in 2015 and wrote about her adventures in “More Fog, Please”: Thirty-One Years Directing Community and High School Musicals, released in November, 2015. All of Jordan’s books are available on Amazon in paperback. The novels are also available on Kindle.
For more information, please visit her website at www.susanmoorejordan.com and her Amazon author page at http://ow.ly/XCjYX